From Birth Trauma Release Workshops:

My mother was unable to attend the services since she was still recovering and I was a newborn. Her sister, my Aunt, rapidly developed severe diabetes after losing her mother, husband and two of her children and was on insulin as long as I knew her. She was very abusive to my cousin and often told her in anger, “I wish you’d been in the car with them”. There was a lot of blame and anger in the family and unfortunately, I was the focus of their displaced anger and blame. If I’d not been born, none of this would’ve happened. My mother, no doubt, blamed me as well as herself and added this new grief to the grief she was still holding from the loss of her father.

I developed “colic” and cried for 3 months. I suspect my mother cried right along with me and whether I developed it from being bottle fed, from the stress and tension of the situation or simply because I knew what was coming – I’ll never know. My mother physically abused me until my younger brother was born when I was 9 ½ years old. I suspect she took all of her emotion out on me but also she was physically abused as a child by her mother; learned behavior.

The emotions or belief system I therefore associate with my birth are:

Guilt, abandonment and fear. The story of my birth was recounted to me many times and began at a very early age. While it was never said directly to me, I realized early on that it was my fault that so many peoples’ lives were affected by my birth. My mother was mean to me, my cousin was mean to me when they visited and the whole family seemed to shun me and “whisper” at family reunions. My cousins and Aunt suffered and the female cousin I mentioned in the beginning perceived me to have lived a golden life with a mother and father and never knew of my physical abuse until I told her in March.

While I’ve worked on this issue for many years and had “head knowledge” that it wasn’t my fault and that I was an innocent being brought into a tragic situation, I still had serious emotional attachment to this root of my physical existence and was ready to heal it permanently.

During the session I cried a lot. I’d hoped it would move through fast, but there were so many issues attached to this root cause that I found myself bringing up more and more in the process. I found it difficult to forgive myself and especially my mother and father. I suffered so much in my childhood and early adulthood from these experiences that I didn’t feel it possible to find forgiveness. I’d not expected that since I’ve worked so hard psychologically over the years through the healing process that I still had so much deep inside me.

I feel free today. It feels good. I’m ready to live MY life now – the life that has awaited me all these years. I am sure that the work will continue to a certain degree, but I know it will be easier now – the hard part in facing it and releasing it is done."

 ~Workshop participant, Hawaii

"At the Birth Trauma Release workshop I experienced the trauma of going back into the sterile hospital of my birth, where I felt isolated and abandoned.  This experience helped me to understand why I have often felt alone and abandoned in my life.  Since then I have felt more connected to myself, my family and the world."

~Silke Korfmacher, HI

"Thank you for allowing me to have some core recognition about a major pattern in my life.  I really got to see that I always felt like a train wreck waiting to happen.  Then I remembered the story, that when my mother was in labor, my parents got stuck at a railroad crossing.  This sense of waiting made me feel like my time was always off and no matter what I wanted to do, I would be held back or get stopped.  This block has been relieved and now I feel I can finally move forward."

~Michon Olson, RMT, HI

EFT on PTSD from 9/11

"For years I suffered from PTSD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.   I had personally witnessed two very traumatic events, September 11th in New York City and Hurricane Katrina in New Orleans.  I practically lost everything in my life twice and had been holding on to this shock and anger for years.  So after years of suffering through a roller coaster of mood swings wrought with anger, despair, shock and severe depression....I was ready to find a way to release these horrible experiences and find a way to learn and heal from them.   I tried "normal" therapy and found that I left the therapist's office over analyzing and feeling worse than when I arrived.  I tried a number of medications which only suppressed the feelings and eventually would lead to severe panic attacks.    I met Veruschka Normandeau a little over a year ago.   EFT(Emotional Freedom Technique) was a new word to me then.   After speaking to Veruschka off and on for over a year about having an EFT healing session with her, I finally decided to give it a try.    I was astonished at how simply amazing this healing session was.   I had never felt such a release!    I cried and cried and really got so much out into the open...even emotions that I didn't think I was hanging on to.   I left feeling like a new person.   I literally felt lighter and filled with an overwhelming sense of love, understanding and forgiveness. 

 I highly recommend Veruschka and EFT for anyone who really wants true healing.   Its effects have been amazing in my life.    I am able to focus more and breeze through my day with less distractive thoughts, more energy and a greater appreciation for all of the different aspects of life.   I feel so blessed to have met her and been able to finally find what truly, truly works and has set me free."  

   Joanna Garza, Austin

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